Monday, November 10, 2008

6 Items of Enlightenment

I was tagged to list 6 things I've learned lately.

1) I take things far too personal, I almost always feel attacked or defeated and I've been working on not taking things so personally-for the most part it's all in my head.

2) He may not be perfect but he's the closest I've ever encountered-My Husband is amazing wonderful and patient, he is the most generouse loving man and I love him with all my heart(the thing i've learned is that i'm so incredibly blessed)

3)I can live a good and happy life....without carbs! Shocking I know. I was blown away.

4) Friends come and go but family is forever and I have the most amazing family in the world. They are strong, loving, accepting, supporting and just plain awesome! Again i feel like the luckiest girl in the world

5) Dora the explorer is the most annoying kids show/video i've ever seen/heard but I love Little Einstiens(a step up from baby einstiens)

6) I am capable of saying "no" and not feeling guilty about it for days/weeks

I guess that's my list-
I tag summer, missy , and mindy

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Prism

I made a deliciouse AND healthy dinner tonight! It's so exciting being in the healthy world-as much as I miss bread and potatoes from time to time it feels so good to buy lots of veggies and such-my fridge is packed and I'm actually proud of whats in it(for the most part) Not only are we losing weight 8 lbs in a week, but we feel better and at least I, can't always speak for ben, feel so much better about myself!
Amazing what one change can do for you.


other than that rant things are going good at the kaashoek residence. Keeping busy with work and just looking to the future. We have so much in the next few months it's crazy!

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Invisible

That is how i feel, completely and utterly invisible unless someone wants something-money, a massage, a babysitter.

Most days the only human contact I have all day long is at work, which is usually an hour or so, and some of the time thats just a quiet, no talking massage.

I feel like I have no friends and if I do they have a funny definition of friendship.

Oh well, pitty party over time to face another dreary lonely day.

Hello world, let's do this.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

men and women...soooooo different!

So I know that everyone knows this but hey just another reason to add in the big book.

So this morning I had the pleasure of giving a 7:20 massage. So I get up and get ready about 6:30(i live litterally a minute from work) and have breakfast even though my husband said he was going to make it for us but is now on the computer. Go to work do the massage get back around 8:25 hoping to crawl back into bed with my husband and stay there until he had to go to work. I push open the front door to find him playing his play station the first words out of his mouth
"Hey baby how are you? I'm going to do the dishes as soon as i finish this level." He's been up since 6:30 and has done nothing but play video games! ha

so the difference?

Woman sees time to spend togather seeing as we are both home in the morning at the same time for once

Man sees nothing but the video games, not the dishes in the sink, or the un-made bed and couch or a chance to help.

Now I ask If the shoe was on the other foot what do you think the woman would do? clean things up, or would she also dink around the house and ignore it?

What would you do?

Male or female let me know.


**********Just a disclaimer this is not meant to make anyone sound bad it's just noting the differences and wondering if this is just my home that functions this way***********

Monday, October 13, 2008

overwhelmed

We just got back from a weekend trip to Pitsberg to visit John, it was fun but we stayed in the most disgusting hotel!!! Also driving back and forth and sleeping in a tiny bed with ben has reeked havoc on my back and neck. But lucky me i got into my chiro practer tonight for an adjustment.
It's monday and that means i'm at my nanny gig, Levi and I are getting along well for the most part, we are going to the zoo later today. Hopefully Megan and Ryer might be coming too, I thought of asking Racine to go but i can never get a hold of her anymore. (what's up with that racine!!!=))
So the overwhelming part for me is financial. everything is working out fine now but in the coming semester hopefully ben will be getting into school. meaning he won't be working as much. Massage has really picked up and nannying is helping but i don't know if that is going to be enough.

Another reason for feeling overwhelmed is I am in GR with Levi and Jackson from 7 am to 6 pm and then i have the 6:40 chiro apt. and I will be going home to a trashed house, a suit case full of dirty laundry, a laundry basket of sheets and towels for work and a sink full of dirty dishes from this morning. *insert an exasperated sigh here.

Well thats all for now, time to play reader rabbit with levi because little einsteins are finished. woohoo!

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Life

So just an update, I got another job! I'm a nanny(again) for two little boys levi and jackson.

that is all for now

Thursday, August 28, 2008

God Provides yet again

So this week was looking rather slow as far as work went for me. I had one hour massage and a half hour massage at doc....and that was it. Well monday i got a phone call from a client who wanted to come to my house(yay that means 100% of the money goes to me) so she came by tuesday, tuesday i recieved a phone call that wednesday I booked a hour massage in the am, Sweet! three massages isn't bad but oh wait it keeps going.....
Another phone call, i booked TWO massages on thursday- so i went in today and low and behold a new client has an emergency and needs a massage so all togather i had 7 massages this week!!!! GOD IS GOOD!!!!! on that note i thought i would post a devotional that really made me think and really made me feel better, so here it is.

Stick To The Plan (4)
Peter replied, 'Tell me to come to You on the water.'
Matthew 14:28 NIV
Peter didn't walk on the water all by himself, he did it with Jesus. Today Christ invites you to walk with Him and experience His miracles. Why don't we see more of them in our lives? Because:
(1) We don't pray and believe God for them. Jesus said, "If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, you will ask what you desire, and it shall be done for you" (John 15:7). Your prayers give God an invitation, an entry point and a channel through which His miraculous power can flow to change your circumstances. But you have to pray and believe Him to do it! (2) We think the day of miracles is past. The Scriptures declare, "Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever" (Hebrews 13:8). In reality there never has been 'a day of miracles'; there's only a God of miracles, and He never changes. So don't limit Him! (3) We allow sin to sabotage our confidence. John writes, "If our hearts do not condemn us, we have confidence before God and receive from Him anything we ask, because we obey His commands and do what pleases Him" (1 John 3:21-22 NIV). (4) We look at the situation instead of the Saviour, and our faith falters. When Jesus told Peter, "Why do you doubt?" He was saying, "Don't allow this storm to overwhelm you. I'm right here with you. Your problem is under My feet, therefore it's under your feet too. Just keep your eyes on Me, keep walking by faith and stick to the plan!"




Another upper for me my oh so sweet hubby hugs me this morning and says "what are our plans for tonight?" I told him we didn't have any and he says "Good, I want to take you to dinner"
wait what??? a date? HOLY CRAP!

Another reason to be happy??? this week my mom came by and not only helped but also supplied paint to paint our basement, we have two walls done and it helps so much! I actually don't run up the stairs anymore to get out of there. The only problem is now i want to finish the blasted basement and we don't have the funds for a drop cieling or carpet....or the third can of paint (we want an accent wall ...scratch the "we"....I want an accent wall) But oh well...a little at a time.
And to end I'm going to do a plug for starbucks~

Have you tried the Starbucks Vivanno blends???? My favorite is the orange mango blend with matcha powder...SO yummy and SO filling. Not to mention i don't feel guilty after indulging. YAY.

Well thats all i have for now hopefully my next post will have pictures of something.

hasta

Sunday, August 10, 2008

My weekend

This weekend was so nice and relaxing, i loved it! Friday night i went to dinner and a movie with my cousins Megan and Kelly and while waiting for them at the bar at applebees I may have procured a job from the gent and his wife sitting next to me. We saw sister hood of the traveling pants 2, i know i know, but it actually wasn't bad. Incredibly cheasy and what not but i've seen much worse.
Then i met up with some friends to celebrate mellissas 21st at pepinos. That was mediocre but still relaxing so nice.
Yesterday I had a relaxing day baking for a picnic I had to go to for my Aunt carol. She is getting married in October and we got to meet her new step kids. They all seemed so nice and very loving-she found a good family to join. I had a pretty good time there seeing everyone but of course no one my age and my dear husband left me to it all alone...weenie.
And of course after the party we went to Joshs sisters for a pool "Party" It was incredibly tame ben and i swam and then pretty much just watched the olympics and played with amys two pups until midnight and went home.
All in all a very relaxing weekend. Tonight we have church and i don't know what else but i have my final book in the twilight series so i'll prob. loose my self in that for a while.
and that's all i got

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Best Week in a long time

This week has been amazing! Started out the best way it could...at the cottage in Traverse City. Ben and i were up there for the weekend and then had to come home sunday night so that I could work this week. Which leads into the other awesome part of the week I actually have massages!!! After a week of none i have 4 of them, had five but the man had to reschedule which actually worked better for me since Ben and I are leaving thursday after my massages and he was the last client. Also Ben got a call yesterday from Saint Maries offering him another position in addition to the one he has now, so instead of working 20 hours a week in one job he is going to be doing fourty a week(hopefully) between the two. Also he was informed that he will be getting a raise. The Lord is definitely working over time for us right now!
And the Best part is we get to go back up to traverse city on thursday and stay until-at this point-wednesday. Oh Heaven on earth here we come!!!!
Another bright spot in my week was I hung out with racine for most of the day yesterday-she helped me do the dreaded suit shopping i was fretting over- we went to lunch and had coffee at her place. I'm so excited to have such wonderful neighbors and I'm more excited for the addition to their house hold.
Well i'm rambling now but I just had to tell the whole world(or possibly the handful of people who read this) that GOD IS GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Been a while eh?

So it has been quite a while since my last post, and quite a lot has changed. The wedding was a dream and the honey moon was a blast and now it's back to my altered reality living on mountain ash.
Things for me are great, I'm terribly in love with my husband and found a new love to bring to my life, reading.
My days get to be rather long seeing as work is incredibly slow during the summer for me-i putz around the house, doing laundry or cleaning up the house, or doing the dishes(no dishwasher=annoying) so reading has really saved me!
I found a new series that i really like-the twilight series by stephanie meyer-Ben is reading it too and it's a perfect escape.
Other than that there really isn't much going on with me. I've been baking a lot and trying some new recipes but i have recently discovered that I despise cooking for two!!!! I would rather feed 4-6 people...those are the meals i like to cook! notso much clean up after but hey.
This past weekend has been kind of a sereal weekend for me- it was three years on sunday that my brother left us and went home, my mom dad sister sara ben and i all hung out togather. ben and i joined my parents for church which was actually something i was dreading, i hate crying in church and on that particular day it was pretty much a gaurentee but the Lord knew what we could handle and it was a message on marriage instead so none of the key crying songs were played and the sermon was easy on us all. After church we headed out to Grand Haven and had a wonderful day eating and playing on the beach-the waves were HUGE!!! After GH we all went to my parents house including my sister amanda and her family and had dinner and what not and then my parents and the two of us went to the cemetary....cue the water works.
This coming weekend promises to be an emotional rollercoaster as well as we go up to Lake Leelanau. It is the most looked forward to two weeks our family spends togather but it was also matts absolute favorite place...lots of memories.

ANY WAY...........
This week ben and i are kind of on pins and needles, we are expecting to hear back about his interview some thime soon.
Keep your fingers crossed for us!!!

Friday, May 2, 2008

about that time

I want to go back to Florida so bad. And i want ice cream right now. ANY WAY..................

lot going on right now! Throughout the week i've slowly been moving into my new place. Our mattress gets delivered saturday and i think that will be my first night there. Exactly two weeks from today is the wedding-it doesn't feel real right now.

This week was super slow as far as work goes but i guess that's ok, I got to work on the programs and ect for the wedding, plus yesterday i was kinda sick so it was ok to have a slow day.

I need to start tanning soon- not to get the fake nasty tan but just so i don't match my dress.

I'm so excited! I checked our registery-yea i know your not supposed too-and we got our kitchenaid mixer!!!!! that like 300 bucks!

Someone must love us.

Well off to do my tasks.

Saturday, April 19, 2008

just another saturday

Oh what I wouldn't give for a nice hotel room right now! A nice quiet hotel room with a comfortable bed, big jacuzzi tub, and some piece and quiet! Maybe then i could get some sleep.
Unfortunetly that won't be happening any time soon. Oh well.
Running off very little sleep and babysitting my sisters three kids equals a pretty decent head ache and a wave of exhaustion. Lauren is in the tattle tale faze and also has no desire to be independent even though she'll be four in august- doesn't want to put her shoes on, dress herself or anything. Morgan is super sensitive and super tired pretty much all of the time. If the littlest thing happens she goes into panic mode screaming and crying over the littlest things-for instance waking up her mother(as well as her siblings) with a blood curddling scream at three oclock in the morning because all her blankets had fallen off and onto the ground. Ryer is a typical lil boy, very curiouse and very loud. He'll be a year the end of may and is very busy exploring his new world. that's not so bad- just tiring. His problem is he is so loud. When he is happy he shrieks so loud it puts his sisters to shame, when he is upset he screams pretty much just as loud.
BUT despite all that i still love them-even with all their stalling, yelling, screaming, fighting, and stubborness.... I love them to pieces.
Well it's about time to close up shop for their lunch and start the battle of nap time- hopefully putting the girls down for naps won't wake up their brother in the process.

27 days until the wedding. can't wait.

Friday, April 11, 2008

Most fun i've had

Yesterday was pretty dandy. I had three massages which is always a plus and talked to my boss about working everyday once i'm married. God willing I can do only massage(that's kinda my dream)
After that I went to target to kill time before meeting with my uncle(the minister who will marry us) I ran into an old old friend at target-about gave me a heart attack! He is doing well and shock of all shocks he's also engaged. Then went to panera for our meeting and then sarah called. we decided drinks sounded nice-i had a bathing suit to show her and she had a project to show me so we decided to go to her house instead of out. Josh called and him and sunshine wanted us to meet them at the lounge so we water bottled our beverage and headed over. The lounge was fine but i'm really not that into hookah so it was kinda boring we decided to run to peppinos for college night but were thwarted as we had two minors with us and they weren't letting any in at that point. boo. so we halled tale-in the rain/sleet mind you-back to sarah's car and went to shoot pool at the pub. I got home about two thirty this morning. It was a ton of fun! just made me realize i don't do enough fun things lately. it's all work be it for doc., escape, or the wedding. So i have come to the conclusion i need to have more fun.
that is all

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Busy stuff

Busy Busy Busy. And yet not at all.....how does that work? Today I did the unthinkable- I went through all my clothes and got rid of most of them....at least that's the idea. I priced over half of my wardrobe with those fun little garage sale stickers and put them in storage until our garage sale on thursday of next week. It felt so good to get rid of it! or at least get it out of my closet. Also i've been slowly building up my wardrobe with "adult" clothes, It's so exciting and it helps bring into perspective that i'm not going to be living here much longer and dum dum dum I'm getting married!
Now I have to slowly start packing for the new appartment and the honeymoon.
Massage is going pretty well, i had four massages on monday-and shock of all shocks they all tipped! Two massages tomorrow and one on friday. I also got offered a 'gig' at grand valley as a gift to the students. chair massage for two hours or something. GOD PROVIDES!!!!!
If i make it into your prayers at all just please pray for continued bussiness for me, getting married definitely comes with a rather large price tag.
well i guess that's it.

Thursday, April 3, 2008

Nothing new

Holy bat snikeis bat man....I'M WHIPPED. I have been flying around all day/week and it's finally caught up to me.
In other news....I can't wait to move into the duplex and out of my parents house. Don't get me wrong, I love them and what not but it's just way past time. but unfortunately my mother doesn't want me moving out and expressed this to my aunt who in turn mentioned it to my uncle who is now my land lord-which means; I won't be moving in until the first of may. Oh well that's one month of rent that i don't have to pay i guess. and lucky for us we don't have to pay mays rent either-just the 600 dollar deposit.
Well my higher level of brain functioning is slowly shutting down so i think i'm going to find me some sleep....at 8:50 pm-dare to dream!

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Here we are again

So yet another open book my life turns into. I figured starting a journal would help me sleep at night, you know get everything down so it isn't swimming in that eternal abyss i call my mind.=) And then I wanted to put a comment on racines page and couldn't unless i was a member-thus a new blog is born.

Things in life are really very busy! The wedding plans are coming along as are the house plans, work, and counseling. Meeting with the florist and pinnacle this week a shower last weekend and this weekend my life goes roaring down the tracks.
I've felt very blessed in work this week- I had two massages monday one today one tomorrow and one saturday at 8:30(and a bridal shower at 10 yikes!) and then I have two monday including an 1 1/2 hour massage and one wednesday. Those are just the ones I know about! I'm so thankful to be able to be getting by with massage! I was so worried that i wouldn't make enough to make it and would be forced to get another job that I absolutely hated. But at this point things are looking up! Praise the Lord!!!

Well that's all i feel like right now as i am fighting a fun little cold/ear infection.

toot toot life goes on!